They sounded the alarm in San Anselmo about an hour ago. The creek is near flood level, after a day of copious rain, with plenty more in the forecast. A couple of hours ago, I went from work (one of the jobs I kept ... but more about that flood later) to the yarn store in San Anselmo to pick up more material for the rainy weekend that is ahead of us. I expect to take my sock kitting to the next level, if not exactly in craft, at least in experience.
It's been an odd week, this one. The first of having attempted to work at three jobs. In fact, the week started on Sunday, when I got a call at home form the brand new boss. It took me by surprise, because I didn't expect to be communicating outside of the parameters of regular working hours. There was a sense of urgency, I suppose, to get going, since there is a lot in the works for that organization, as I was to find out in two days of working (along with working one of my other jobs during those two days), there was too much in the works for me to handle.
So, on the second day, after I put in my hours and completed only about one third of the tasks on the list for the day, I wrote a note to the 'boss," letting him know why this won't work out.
I learned two things form my two days at that job. One was that you really have to be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it -- which is another way of putting that you can be had by your own wishes in ways that are not healthy for you.
The other thing I learned was that the kind of self-knowledge I thought I had is an illusion. Like Krishnamurti said, "there is no method for self-knowledge," because "[s]eeking a method invariably implies the desire to attain some result." As soon as I thought I knew who I was, I was someone else - or so it seems.
So now I am back to working two jobs, one in the nonprofit sector (my old job), where I was given a raise the day of my 1-year anniversary, and the other job, in a small office in one of the more charming towns of Marin and a boss with whom I sneak out at odd hours to yoga classes -- and whom I am starting to admire more and more for her formidable business talents, not to mention her considerable zest for life and loyalty to family and friends.
